I have a follower!

I have a follower but my stupid work internet won't let me see who it is!

I'm excited but also kind of nervous. I definately write in this blog solely for myself and while I know other people randomly find it I assume none of them know me while a follower is probably somebody who knows me, especialy nerve racking when I don't know who it is haha!

Also to add some actual depth to this post. I just re-read the book of Revelation, which I last read when I was 14. And now it holds a lot more weight then it did back then let me tell you. So basically I think Revelation is not the fear, fire and brimstone people talk about it as. Revelation is a promise! It's God's gift to the holy, saying, "Look what I will give you. Look not at the falsehood around you." Parts of it can be scary, I wonder if I have done enough, will the Judge look in the book of life and see my name? But then I have to remember "through Christ we are saved." "He who knows Me, knows the Father." And other versus I don't want to misquote. Jesus said that when the Judge looks at the book of life he will look to Jesus and Jesus will have the final say, of either, "Yes, Father, I know him." or, "No, Father, I knew him not." When the Judge looks at my name, at my wasted potential, at my fallings and my failures, He will see only the cleansing blood of Jesus and I will be saved. Because of that, I do not fear the book of Revelation. Because of that I look at Revelation and see only the gifts God will give me. I see the glory that will be shared among my brothers and sisters in Christ. I see the justice in the punishment dealt to those who hold falsehood dear, who choose adultury, who look for violence and conflict without cause, who deal in their own strengths and earthly powers. I am more powerful then all of these, for my strength is not my own, my name and my life are not my own. These are facts I know. He who is named Faithful and True is my strength, champion of God's army, whose tongue is a sword and whose title is King of Kings. My name is not known to me, but will be revealed when the Lord brings me to His glory and writes my true name on my skin. My life is created, blessed and protected by the one who makes and governs all life and will decide who must face the second death. These are the comforts and blessing I see when I read through the book of Revelation.

Poetry... really? Yeah. Suck it!

Here is a poem I wrote to trade someone for some art.

Revenge is so sweet for Wittering

By Michael Davidson

In a town where no wind ever reached,

A young man stood on corners and preached.

To quite down he would oft’ be beseeched,

But the young man’s heart was never breached.

For he claimed the good he had teached,

Even though he had problems with his speech.

With this here many problems can be found.

First off wherever the lad could see ground,

The young man would start to make his sure sound.

Little did he know there was a small mound:

For which the whole town knew that he was bound,

And would look away when he was around.

In this town you can find many places:

In each place you can find many races:

In a race you can find many faces.

The young man, his face requires braces.

And each brace with his tongue he oft’ traces.

Though no help they are when he makes cases.

Everyone knew for this fool the right noun.

And it was his true title in this town.

They all called the young man mad, loud clown.

Upon him they laid a poor fool’s sad crown:

Then led him by hand to the river down.

And in ignorant bliss the young man drown.

What happened to the boy wasn’t news,

Most just went home and took a nice, long snooze.

But trouble began to come fast in twos,

And to solve this, the town could find no clues.

But assured the wind, this town did lose.

People turned to violence and booze.

Trouble citizens made while flittering,

For this crime, on the people would it wring

When the breeze and the wind they could not bring,

The town was distraught and would soon unring

Death was easy now, men hanging by string

This was the revenge of young Wittering.

10 out of 10

 Little bit of background. I have spent the last while -I don't know how long exactly- making an effort to stop caring about the people who don't care about me and seeing the difference of when people say they care and when they actually do. And many people believe they care when they say it but they don't. It's not their fault, they just don't. So I've been finding people who will A) help me get where I'm going OR B) just actually want to be around me. And I've found during my uest many people who are focused, goal driven and positive. Again most people say they are positive but they didn't actually understand positive and negative. Positive is being an actual uplifting force in a person's life, giving to that person and helping that person obtain the things they want in life.
So on to the meat of this note. I've been looking at people's status' (stati?) over the past while and every time I do I notice huge trends. There are just major differences in the stati (status'?) of people I spend my time with now and people I spent my time with in different periods of my life. And it's just a level of positivity. For instance the status' of people I spend my time with now are about how awesome a day of shooting was! Or how great seeing someone was. Or asking for help on an upcoming project. While the statuses (?, no) of people I used to spend my time with and even up until a few days ago I maybe tried to put an effort into are things like how they want a new job. Or how they can't get any theatre or film work. Or how rude or stupid people are. Or just as simple as being bored or tired.
I recently read a book in which one of the messages was 10s actract 10s. If your personality is a 5 you will actract people who are lower then 5. And you yourself will be attracted to 7s or 8s who in turn will be attracted to 9s and 10s. I thought about this in terms of pictures and sites like "Hot or Not" where you rate pictures and how people get rated 1-10 on looks and every high schooler knows that to date someone on the high end you have to be on the high end. It's just the way physical attraction works. Well for the first time I clearly understand that it also how personalities work. It is really just that simple. To attract positive, helpful, forward moving people, stop complaining, stop being negative, STOP MAKING EXCUSES! And become a positive, helpful, forward moving person.
If you want to create film and have people ask you to be part of projects then start doing it yourself and start asking people to be part of projects! If you want to fill your life with talkitive people, talk to talkitive people and be talkitive. You want to be on stage and get gigs, find a stage and make a gig. You want a good boyfriend, be a good girlfriend. These are so simple but so hard to understand.
When I start to rant like that it just means i am passionate about it. I want each and every person I know to find happiness and it hurts me when I see old flames complain about their bad boyfriends or lack of boyfriend. It hurts me to see old friends complain they have nothing to do or life isn't going well for them. It hurts me just to see people I barily know complain they don't like the job they are in. Because I want to help andI want to show everyone that to live a better life, you just have to live a better life. Unfortunately the saddest part is that each person has to find this out for themselves, my struggles are not their struggles and vica versa. I cannot put the effort and positivity into people who continue to shrug off the offers and love. Each person needs to find their own path, I just encourage people to look at the path they are on right now, look at where they want that path to go, see where it's headed and ask themselves "Is that where I want to go? Are the things I spend my time on moving me toward what I want? Are the people I spend my time with helping me get there?"