Blogs

Here's a thought. Blogs, they are kind of place to just say whatever is on your mind. To put it out into the world without recourse. As such many people blog about their feelings and about their relationships. Some people blog a lot, about everything. So say you go on a date with a blogger, and you know his blog, and that he blogs a lot. So at the end of the date you go and check his blog, knowing what you will see. His thoughts and impretions of your date. This is kind of awesome and kind of horrible. This happened to me and on the one hand I feel like I'm intruding but on the other hand it is public info, out for everyone to see.
Kind of the same battle the police have everytime they have to deal with an internet related crime.

It also leads me to wondering about the specific cercumstances. Do I really want someone to be interested in me? It's nice. Really nice, to know I can get dates again and make them feel attracted to me so quickly after. But I love Natasha, I thought she was the person I was going to spend my life with. And with this girl, am I just a rebound? She broke up with her boyfriend a few weeks ago and said she was going to wait for him. I know it is only a matter of time of being alone before I slip back into a bad place, I am unsure how long that window will be though. I'm definately not doing anything with anyone besides causual dates before Romania. I'm glad I'm going alone after everything. Give me some time to really be alone and decide where I'm going in life right now, which direction my path is headed, if I need to adjust anything, all that stuff that I haven't had time to sort out, just keep jumping from idea to idea.

Starting tomorrow I'll be "working" 8 hours a day. Doing theatre/film or zombie related activities. I figure this way I will get more work done instead of kind of working as projects come. I will force myself to find projects to fill the time. I took a week off, played some video games, hung out with people, and sorted my room (mostly), time to get back to work.